Would someone just blow my head off please?

So Dan's at church with the girls and I'm at home with a "Migraine".....well so he tells everyone. Really it's that my Daily Headache pain that I've been living with since December 4th 2006 (oh yes I remember the exact date) has escalated to an extreme headache pain of (on a scale of 1-10) an 8 or 9. Usually my pain level everyday is a tolerable 2 or a 3, but today I woke up and it had escalated again. It hasn't been this bad in a very long time. I can usually function fairly normally, even with the girls, but today was one of those days when hiding out in my bedroom was the answer and missing church was the solution.....which I despise doing. I really dislike missing out on church. Not only cause I hate missing out on things period, but cause I hate missing out on going to church and feeling the spirit that the meeting brings. It renews my own soul and reminds me of my purpose on this earth. It helps me gather the strength to be a good person and to treat everyone like our Savior would. Anyways they're about to come home now and I do feel a lot better now that I've rested and taken the one Alieve I'm aloud out of two a week. The medication I'm on Topamax (the high dose) doesn't seem to be suppressing my headaches at all. I'm working with a Natropathic doctor to help my body rid the headaches as well. I'm at my wits end! I'm so tired of living with this daily pain. You have no idea what it's like. Can you imagine having a headache every day of your life? I never could until it happened to me. I honestly don't remember what it feels like to live normally anymore. To live pain free....what does that feel like? I don't remember. I wonder sometimes if I'll ever know. I've heard of some people living like this for up to 20 years. I hope mine doesn't come to that.